after yosi plus men's perfume...

doesn't smell that horrible...
in fact, i find it quite... well... i wouldn't mind getting stuck in an elevator with that smell in the air. hehe. not that im attracted to it, mind you... hmmm. but, maybe, subconsciously, i am. i just realized later on that my dad used to smell like that all the time... he's always mabango, even after yosi. para bang talagang tinadhanang mabango pa ren ang amoy kahit na kahalo na ng matapang na mabahong amoy ng yosi... bumabango ba. masmabango pa sa perfume lang...hehe.labo ba?na-mutate ang amoy.maybe a chemical change occured...
sigh.
i remember i used to pretend na i was smoking either with dad's finished yosi in the ashtray or with a pencil that id burned especially for the purpose of playing, pretending that i am a kontrabida in a movie. (at talagang umuusok sha at namumula den, just like a real yosi! pero at least di napo-pollute ang  lungs ko, i think...) haha! insane...
i miss my dad.
haha, that's basically it.
:(
it'll be my dad's birthday on july 31st pala...
hmmm... nagpaparamdam kaya dad ko?!

i didnt get to post yesterday. i was rushing to get ot kit's place haha. i wasnt supposed to go to the office pala kasi. we're back to that rotation sked thing so this week im only required to go to the ofc this wednesday. ryt now im in Kit's place, watching Friends Season 10 downloads. :D yay!
ill be putting in more of what happened to me the next time i log in, just wanted to affirm my existence today :D

i am freeeeezzziiinnnnggggg

as in. just gonna get a daily dose of insane morbidity from happy tree friends. ahehe. but seriously i have a headache na. need to sleep siguro. good thing we can go home na.
arggghhh. i am so not feeling well (baka najejebs lang ako?!)
that's it man. im off to the john. (why do they call it that?!)
oh, funniest thing today: overheard in the ladies' room...
 
"grabe, mukha na kong pwet ng diaper!"
 
errr.. at least hindi pwet ng baby?! e kaso wala namang pwet ang diaper ah?! man, must be some gross pwet...
 

william hung death

must be someone's idea of a very sick joke... i checked major news sites and there was nothing about william's so-called heroin suicide. man. people are so f*ckn bored with their lives, they feel the need to mess up other people and get noticed. geezzz... shame on me den. i feel soooo gullible talaga...

i dreamed a dream

i came in late today. mga 11 na ata. buti na lang it isnt a big deal here. kung hindi, bad rep na. hayyy. super headache lang talaga, swear. and i had to pay for water pa (P900 for water?!absurd!dati P200 a month lang ah?!) and there was the longest line talaga. buti na lang when i came into the office, an S&P500 company was calling my name. ahehe.
now, im listening to launchcast, astig, it comes na with the new ym, together with my pretty avatar and cool emoticons. haha, ambabaw ko no?
anyways. i had a dream. weird.
my boyfriend's sister was going to get married with my highschool barkada's brother... i was going to make a speech pa nga eh. haha. but that isnt important actually. the important detail was that my dad was there. i asked him if he was coming to the wedding and he said yes. but when i asked him if he was coming to my wedding (and in the dream, it felt like that was a pretty predictable question, meaning that he'd say yes) but then he just smiled and didnt answer. of course when i woke up, it was like, duh?! how stupid of me to even ask... sad. pathetic. ewan. suddenly, it depresses me. oh well...
ey, for a good news, our performance bonus is coming at the end of the month, along with our raise. yippie!!! sana malaki ahehe. di ko pa ginagastos, ubos na.
newsflash: dont know if this is really true though. circulating the email...
American Idol’s William Hung Found Dead of Heroin Overdose
shet. what a downer. and the article said it was suicide. he couldn't take the commercialization people were doing with his life and shit.
"he just wanted to sing, and Fox decided to turn him into this joke, man, this fucking joke."
and then his suicide note said,
"I have no reason of living . . . my art which is my importance to the best everybody laugh to . . . I make end here . . . goodbye world of cruel."
man, i hope this ain't true. Hollywood must be a really bad place...

going home

nothing - as in - NOTHING happened today...
good thing we're being sent home.
sigh.
i'll watch SCQ Reload na lang later. haha.

nako...

now im doubting whether i can handle having a part time job along with my full time one. yaiks. natatakot ako, ahehe. siguro napaparanoid lang ako. jitters lang siguro. hahahayyyy. i still haven't told my mom about it. balak ko kasi the money i earn from that will be my OWN disposable income... as in disposable.ahehe... hayyy. wish i have become totally responsible about this. sometimes i think na, during the interview portion, im able to impress the interviewer but, once they hire me, parang all thatgood impression is gone. ahehe. shempre paranoid lang ako, cos that hasn't happened pa naman. sigh. Kit was saying den that this may take up much of my time. But then, when i think about it, I doubt naman cos I think I made it clear to the employer that I'm keeping my job pa ren. hmmm... and he did say that he won't be stressing me out. Relaxed naman daw eh. hayyy. Why do i get this feeling na I'm digging this huge hole for me to fall in?! Jitters... Jitters... and the coffee. I knew i shouldn't have bought starbucks coffee kanina. it kept me awake nga kanina but then, now, im jumpy and hyper and restless, as in. parang i feel slightly our of breath... but then, baka jitters lang den. sigh.
anyway, haha- mention ko lang, i saw biboy ramirez, anna larrucea, william thio and diego castro in starbucks. as in the last two ate right beside our table, where i was being interviewed! haha, showbiz sighting ba?! william is cute, pero he does look a little gay. He was really mahinhin... ahehe.
--> nakasabay ko pala for interview si blaise, basta busmate ko sha sa st. paul before... i dont know nga lang where she lives na, forgot...hmmm... <--
anyway, nga pala, i watched The Prince and Me last Friday diba?! omg, until now, di ko pa na-a-outgrow ang mga teeny bopper kilig movies, i swear!!! teehee...
nung nagpropose ung prince, i swear, hihimatayin ako!!! panu ba naman, magpropose, down on one knee (typical), pero pag-open ng kamay, aba, may butterfly!cutie yellow small butterfly na lumipad to reveal this stunning engagement ring! hayyyy... wish ko lang... [hint hint :D]
it's one of those movies that leaves me with a smile on my face, all through out na tipong mangangalay ang panga ko sa sobrang aliw. haha!
cute nung prince... ahehe, bumabalik ata ang crushie moments ko sa mga teeny boppy movies...
o sha, chatting with Kit... :D
Nga pala, Happy Tree Friends made me laugh today... click here para matuwa den kayo sa cuties gone violent ahehe.

yoohoo!!! i got the job!!!

woohoo!!! got a part time job as an account executive! whoopdeeedoooo!!! finally something to get busy with. this is my ideal part time!!! cos i can work on it, even if im in the ofc, or at home, make presentations, get contacts, nice people my age den, basta im ecstaticssss... hehe. i think im gonna learn a lot from this stint. naysssssssss... [nice] and im pretty sure i can handle it. :D 4 hours a week lang naman daw eh, very manageable.
guys, wish me lots of luck! if i get to be good at this, id be earning a lot :D aheheh.
shempre, im keeping my research analyst job. kasi fun den yon :D
basta priority ang full time shempre, kaya nga part time un e diba? pero im pysched to work on something different. basta mukhang masaya to, pramis. wheee...
we got training on saturday. :D hope it goes really well.
on a sad note, my tita/cousin (hehe, cos i call her tita) is in the hospital :(
hope she gets well sooonnnn... blog later, gotta work on a company na :D

hiningal ako sa pc game

haha. grabe naman kasi nakaka-panic kasi i figured it all out na and i didnt want to start all over again...
frank's adventures 1 & 2 ang agenda ko for the day, haha. but i got to work den naman 1 s&p500 company. naks. hebigats. pero un. hayyy.
ang cute nung final song, labo hindi pang semi-hentai game ending kasi parang cutie anime song, haha. basta napagod ako, haha!
manonood ako ng the prince and me with Mara and my mom. sana maganda. oy... iba na ang itsura ng blogspot ah! at last, i dont need to input html codes much in my entries at this point (writing it)... hayyy. o ibahin ko nga font ko at color...
green... kasi frustrated na di nakapasok sa viridian room, ung sequel ng crimson room... hmph. i dont know if the prob is with my pc... really wanted to play that e... hayyy. siguro some other time... on another pc? hay nako. kaka-adik ng games ah.hehe.
looking forward to monday. sana my interview goes really really as in really well...  o sha, ill try to play another before going home, haha!

was sick yesterday

yep. di na ako sanay mag-opisina ng magkakasunod na araw kaya nagkasakit ako. haha! but then, come afternoon, when my mom found out i was home, dami na namang inutos. hayyy. ang hirap magkaron ng obsessive compulsive na closed minded na madalas stressed na nanay. sussss...
anyway, i decided not to get an addict mobile account. sigh. kahit pa may free nokia 6230 na phone na... i decided na even if this is a once-in-a-lifetime chance pa (hehe,drama o), i wont take it. sigh. let's just say na i've been imagining getting my own phone bill and it kinda gives me the creeps. nakakatakot. what if i go super over and i cant pay for it? i could go to jail! haha, over-acting... pero it freaks me out pa ren. kasi i know na hindi pa ako mega-financially stable. siguro after a year? or maybe, i can control being magastos, so i wont have to get a plan... as for a new phone, i think ill settle for a 6610i na lang. it's only about 11thou and i think that's quite manageable. wag lang sana sha mawala or manakaw once i have it na. haha.
ey! a text came in! i get to be interviewed for Speakerboxxx Productions for a part time account executive position! asteeeggg!!! sana i get in. it would be so cool to have that job, while i still have this job. :D experience den yon. :D check out what i applied for. feeling ko it's just a small company and the pay may not be big, but still... ok lang. something to work for, work with...
anyway, hmmm.
i just remembered and ive been meaning to put this in. have you seen the sky at night lately? well, ive noticed na imbes na madaming stars, e wala. cos of the storms siguro. instead, sunod sunod na kidlat... as in. the other day nga, it was like the eastern and northern thunders were talking to each other. ahehehe. kasi after nung isa kumidlat, ung isa naman. oh well. wala lang. it was entertaining (oo na, mababaw ako), it's like saying na, although there are no stars to wish upon, here are a couple of thunders to keep you amused.
anyway, this song is keeping me amused lately... sana bagay sa boses ko ang kantang to... hehe.

Listen (by Stonefree)

Close the door
I feel a breeze
Hold me please
I hate to be alone
It's a cold night
Turn off the light
Come take my hand and...

CHORUS
Listen to these things I have to say
Please understand
She left me all alone again

Clear the room
Of every memory
I don't want that song back on
It's an endless maze
Take away this haze
Please mend my heart and...
[Repeat CHORUS twice]

Turn away
Don't want you to see me cry
I just want things the way they were
It's so hard to say goodbye
Wipe my tears and...
[Repeat CHORUS]

post for June 13

amlamig.
i actually can go home na. im freezing na here, but im choosign to stay simply because Kit is also online. so im enjoying a game of literati (and a bunch of words we made up) with him. im also listening to his mp3s through yahoo messenger.
last nyt, i was sooo feeling bad. though i certainly enjoyed watching a movie (spiderman rocks!), the goodbyes didn't go so well. wala bang closure. ahehe. but when i choose to wallow in my misery, booom. until the next day na un. hayyy.., alam mo ung feeling na, on the ride home, you cant seem to think about anything else but ur disappointment or anger or inis... so u keep thinking about it and it just escalates to unreasonable proportions... na para bang you become cold and unforgiving. ahehehe. di naman un ang nangyari last night, pero i just got to think about that. walalalalalang.
kanina, played sim girl. kaso i got disconnected. rather, i accidentally closed the screen, ahehe. ok lang. nakakatamad di naman kasi sha. pero in fairness, andaming bagong features ah. meon na shang pda at cellfone, may fight club, u can go and win swim meets, etc. wala lang.
ayyy. yan, Kit went to his class na. huhuh. siguro ill go home na lang den. i can come back naman tmrw eh...
i didnt work at all naman today, oh well... sana me sweldo na kami, id better check before going home. para i can buy a blouse or something hehe, just to cheer me up.nako, my sweldo is alloted for a lot of things already for this paycheck. hayyy.

a lil depressed, a lil psyched

well, my plans with lily got cancelled cos she had to work OT cos she had to rush this pitch, whatever it is. advertising talaga is stressful i think. ayoko mastress. ahehe.
i got a 98 in one case. well, that's good enough kaso i expected a 100. sigh, i overlooked a page kasi.sayang.
i browsed thru PEx forums. saw something that really depressed me. P&G is one of the highest paying companies for entry level positions. well. i passed the test they administered kasi. but then, i didnt follow it up, didnt work at it. so im ryt here thinking what if what if id worked my ass off to get in P&G. e di id be earning double. sigh. oh well. now im thinking that opporutnity may have already passed me by. i mean, is there a chance for me to get in pa? or in any nice big company? sigh. ewan. actually, alam ko naman, the job i have, well, i was destined for it, seeing na im here now and im pretty happy and now im being "given" the opportunity to seek other avenues to grow (seeing as i have milliongs of seconds to waste).
Kit (aside from having DSL!!!!) hehe, conek, anyway, he's got a part-time raket as an encoder (why do they call it raket ba?!), flash maker (er, is that how it's called?) and web developer. cool, huh? wish i could get some sideline high earning job den. haha.
what else has depressed me ba? hay nako. i have this list na of things to buy for myself when the bonus comes. i bet i wont be able to buy half of them. i dont know nga, i think my mom has plans pa to do with my bonus. sigh. wish i could be an uncaring ungrateful bitch sometimes. haha. pero alam ko that wont be nice. i wont like being like that either. hayyy.
im psyched coz, though lily cancelled our plans, i got a back-up naman kagad, haha. kit and i are finally going to watch spiderman 2 (yep, loser.) and that's one of the few things im psyched about. i really hope i get my bonus soon. hay nako. di pa sha dumadating nagastos ko na sha sa utak ko. hayyy, people keep asking me how to save, and i give them lots of advice but i cant even do any of it.
im thinking of joining my tita's neighborhood paluwagan. un nga lang, they require 500 per week.... well, im seriously considering joining. para i can at least save and enjoy the perks from time to time. pero i dont know pa....
ano pa ba...
well, ive got nothing to do na as of the moment. hay nako. i bet tomorrow will be much worse, meaning masmaraming idle time.... sheeeeshhh

lumalabo na ata mata ko

kakatingin sa PC... pero di naman dahil sa trabaho.. hayyy.
i feel so tamad. sige na.
just dropped by, feeling kinda shitty.
at least i have something to look forward to on monday. lily invited me to the premiere of along came polly! yay!
sana i can watch a movie also this weekend. nako, have to go to the office whole week next week. pano ba naman, some hotshot from the US is coming so we have to pretend that we work a lot hard here. haha. hayyy.

sabi ni she...

LOVE HAS ITS OWN TIME, SEASON, AND REASON YOU CAN'T ASK FOR IT TO STAY YOU CAN ONLY EMBRACE IT WHEN IT COMES AND BE GLAD THAT FOR A MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE...IT WAS YOURS...

*sigh*

stole this from mon's blog. aheheh. sooooo nice... *sigh*

what people ask most to the men who propose is that if they're really sure, or how do they know she's the one. i went to this wedding yesterday, a friend's sister's, and i think the groom said it best. mai and veej were married yesterday in st. james in alabang. at the reception, wonderful ceremony and food by the by (and pretty guests too ), veej made his speech. i will try my best to restate his wonderful thoughts.

when i proposed to mai, i was frequently asked these three questions: are you sure?, how do you know? and are you nervous?. i answer the first two questions with this.
you can never be too sure or too certain about marrying someone. but you can always have faith, and i think some things are best left to faith. faith in that you made the right choice. faith in that things will last forever. and maybe even longer. but most of all, there should be faith in the person you married. she is there, just as unsure as you, but just as faithful. have faith in love uniting two souls.
for the third question, my answer is no, i haven't been nervous for the past six months (of the engagement). while it is true that this is the hardest and scariest decision a guy can make, it should very well be the easiest also. knowing that i love her is reason enough to commit my life to her.

it was just so sweet and sincere. damn smooth pare.

work today= watch movie

haha, i watched gone in 60 seconds now pa lang. nako, i never got around to doing it before kasi i was getting busy with nonsense stuff.
my first workday of the week and i did a lot of things:
-check email
-check friendster: 2 friend alerts, 2 messages and a total of 441 friends! woohoo!
-check jobstreet. i currently have 4 applications for a part time job. nothing to rave about.
-games games games
-neopets. :)
-eat eat eat

i think that's pretty much it... work?? anong work?! hahaha. pinapauwi na nga kami e. great. kung kelan time nameng pumasok wala namang trabaho.nakakatawa. ill be in sa friday naman ulet. hayyy.
well.
i got to see the preview for sims 2! and man, am i drooooliiiinggggg!
shet, i need to upgrade my PC's specs na just so i can play that when it comes out.man.so excited. pagmeron na non, di na ko magtatrabaho hahaha! as if me tatrabahuin!
i think my bonus money will go to upgrading my PC. sana lang kasya siya. id have to sell na lang siguro my PC's parts. or baka trade-in. anybody knows where?
i want Pentium 4 (with the highest gigs i can afford), Nvidia GeForce 4, 256 MB RAM, a new motherboard then and a decent soundcard. hayyy.
anyway, i think ill post what i wrote in for my "standards of success"... haha, shempre this is mejo madrama kasi pambola, heheh.

Success is not measured by one's financial gain, but more about one's personal growth,in all aspects.It is that point at which a person can say, "I have tried all that I can and I am proud of who I turned out to be." It does not involve compromising one's values or stepping on other people just to get ahead. It is not about winning against others, rather, it is winning against what you thought you were not able to do.
And as they say, "Success is a journey, not a destination." What is important is the pieces you pick up along the way...
Success is about exceeding expectations, not because you thrive to deviate, but because you are glorified in admitting that, though there are limitations, you were able to achieve what was once a vision, as aspiration, a dream.
A definite goal or outcome, fueled by brilliance, wisdom, passion, determination, a little creativity and lots of hard work, guided by the Greater Being and love for others--- success won't be too far.

never is a promise...

o nga no?!

i saw jestoni alarcon the other day...

haha, wala lang... gwapo nya pala talaga in fairness. MEZTIZO...
hayyy.
o yon, im trying to apply to different chuvas for a part-time chenes. pero yon. online applications lang naman. hayyy.
sana dumating na ung bonus...
hay leche.
watalyf.
walang kwenta na mga entries ko.
pano ba naman, nothing much is happening.
god, this is worse than being over-analytical about things (which i used to do a lot before kasi wala ring work mashado) kasi ryt now im just being ultimately down ass lazy. my butt is imprinted in this chair im sitting on, and at home, in the couch in front of the TV. i swear. i can feel na im gaining some weight pa. tried to follow that article why french women are slim (kasi they eat smaller portions, they dont snack, etc etc...) but i dont think it'll work for me. for one, im not french! nyahahahaha. jeezzz. ka-corny. kung corny na ko before, mascorny na ko ngayon, which means that not only am i bored, my brain is failing to crack decent, well... cracks...
sheesshh.