meet my new best friend

i lost my best friend. well, it isnt like that person isnt there anymore, or that we said "you're not my best friend!" to each other. no drama (actually, it's just me who deals with all the drama, if ever there's any...) it ain't "poof! it's gone" either... more like a billow of smoke that is slowly disappearing into thin air...

i just felt that... well... let's just put it this way.

STRESS is my new best friend. Stress is always there for me, and stress accompanies me through everything im going through. stress is there to make me drink my coffee so that i wont fall asleep. Stress tells me all these things that are happening to me, they come crashing into me all at once, but it doesnt mean i let them bang me up against the wall and hurt me. Stress always tells me nothing has me beat yet, and it has to stay that way. stress is urging me to do the one thousand and one things i need to do, that i can not rest, i can not stop, even if i feel so wasted already, because i have to keep going on, because... people are expecting me to keep going on, to stay on top of everything else despite of lack of sleep and having all forms of happiness sucked out of my life.

sometimes i try to resist Stress, but then i cant. after all, Stress has always been there for me lately. Can i just tell him to quit being around? no, that would not be fair to Stress, not after being so supportive, with him urging me to push my limits... and push em further... and further...

i haven't collapsed yet, so i guess Stress does know best. either that or he's pushing me towards early retirement hehe...

i'm sad that i lost my other best friend. im not sure if things can go back to the way they used to. i'm not sure if he has Stress as his new best friend too, or maybe Freedom is. all i know is, i'm gonna hang on to Stress for a little while longer...

Being with Stress is my way to overcome missing him...
Too bad Stress doesn't like going to the movies or eating out :(

i thought the day would never come

... that i would be a huge fan girl!!! haha!

much more... that i would actually see this object of obsession and salivation (hehe!) up close and maybe even personal!

oh my gulay! it's WOOKIE DAY!!!

i havent slept yet because of my mom's thesis (and, yes we had a fight again cos she wants me to stop my own world from spinning to keep hers spinning...), but i am just so psyched for this day, sleeping has gone from my vocabulary. what IS in my vocab right now is "freshen up", "be cute", "smile a lot", "adore Wookie"!!! haha!

i am going to see him, i am actually going to see him... i cant wipe this grin of my face, my face hurts.

oh, and as balance must happen, to add to the pain of my mom's thesis, i have a pimple in my chin, just when i'm meeting wookie. perfect! grr... oh well, i dont want to complain, im just so ecstatic!

after that, im going to a movie with ge, and tomorrow, i'll be attending that wedding planning seminar... oh, and have i made kwento that Mia already hired me to be her wedding coordinator?!? :D (her wedding is set June 2007)

there's just too many blessings, i hope i can do my end of the bargain.

can i just ask for a few more?
(1) nothing happens to my clothes
(2) if i get to have my picture taken with Wookie, that my smile be as dazzling as ever
(3) that i won't be late for Wookie
(4) that i learn to pronounce the Korean words i'll be practicing, and not make a fool of myself
(5) that my first fan girl experience would be a great one, and not the least bit traumatic... para i can be a fan girl again! haha!

Thank you, God. i know i don't say it often... and it's not just because of this... I love you po! ;D

WOOKIE IS COMING!

The love of my life/ embodiment of my ideal man is coming!!!
and i just might be able to see him in person!!!

*swwooooonnn*

if the universe conspires to the fullest, rated K might just get us Lee Dong Wook fans to swear our undying love for him, and we will be able to see him!!! touch him... breathe the same air he's breathing...

anu ba kung exaj, walang pakialamanan! haha!

i'm thinking na what to tell him...

i love you, can i keep you?
you're so delicious, can i eat you?!

haha! ngayon lang ako kinilig na na-e-excite ng ganito sa isang celebrity! i swear, i'm not usually this insane! haha!

if this pushes through, this will be the most gaga and exciting moment of my life! haha!

harrased

i've been so busy and harassed these past few days, what with work, teaching, MBA classes, my mom's thesis, and the other minor things that need to be taken care of in this so-called life. it's all ME-time (well, save for my mom's thesis of course - which is a real PAIN), and i intend to be busy and harassed, not only with the "career" part of my life, but with family and friends also.

work is busy, though there are idle times still. there's this new group that's being formed, and it's called the Strategic Research and Projects Team. i've accepted the offer to be in this group, but initially, i thought this was just a project and not a permanent move... but it seems it's going to be that way, and now, im thinking twice. it's challenging, and it would be a good career move, but i don't know if i'm ready to take it cos it's this rubbing-elbows-with-company-execs, dealing-with-global-execs and my-head-will-explode-cos-i'll-be-so-smart team. hello, it's STRATEGIC RESEARCH! and it involves the whole company, and it's scary but it's great - professionally. ah basta ganun... i hope God's plans are in this corner. and i will miss my team, if ever... we've already been talking about our trip to the States come Feb, and i hate to miss that :(

i've got a couple of movie dates lined up, and im so happy that i'll be spending time with friends who i haven't seen for such a long time, or friends that i just have a great time always with :D so far, i've got mich, cla, coney, sarah, pat, ge, jeng and jihan on my list. i think i'm going to catch all the movies i like this time around :D

i have that events planning seminar on the 22nd, and i am sooo looking forward to that because i can actually be an events planner after that (anyone who needs a newbie events planner for their wedding or something? pick me! while i'm cheap! hehe)

my MBA classes are not that hard yet, so i still survive (rant: argh for irresponsible groupmates! how the hell did they pass the entrance exams?!) Teaching is going great, albeit it's such a hassle to come up with lesson plans grr... in fact, i'm two lesson plans late. hehe. but i'm enjoying it cause my students are nice and it's fun to be back in high school :D

i won't talk about Kit because i don't feel that great towards him. i really miss him. but...

Make your Mr. Maybe your MR. RIGHT

Stolen from Nes...

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your own relationship, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your SO (significant other) might start asking, "Did I choose the right person?" And as you and your SO reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when relationships breakdown. People blame their SOs for their unhappiness and look outside their relationship for fulfillment.

Fulfillment in a relationship comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): THE KEY TO A SUCCESFUL RELATIONSHIP IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.