24 hours

for 24 hours this time, ive been alive alert awake enthusiastic... well maybe not that last one.
yes, coffee is responsible for my zero-sleep and my dehydration... argh. it's those freakin math problems! i will never volunteer to collate group work again grrr... on top of that, i had to finish that computerized 40 item shit. im so into presentation pa naman kaya tlgang sinigurado ko pang its super nice... im quite proud of it actually... but geezz... i am sooo tired! will i even get thin in exchange for this? i hope so...
will sleep 2 hours before going to my class later... sigh.

P.S. work opportunities at work are expanding. kewl... if my lucky stars are shining bright, i might be in the states during the summer... or be a analysis reviewer or something. ;)

42 hours

so that's how long i stayed awake.
haha.
before i went to sleep i had a telebabad session with a friend pa kasi who was bothered by his love problems. how was i supposed to turn that one down?! hahaha.
anyway, i managed to sleep for 15 hours naman para mabawi. hindi pa bawi, pero pwede na. then i was almost late for my thursday class. grabe, hilo pa ko cos i rode a cab and instructed it to go to rockwell. it was only when we were at powerplant that i realized my class was in dela costa! *toink*
well, now im still awake, trying to do math problems. sigh. ive got a ton to do pa. also, my mom needs help pa for her bangladesh reporting. sheeshh. ive got to wake up early pa. :(
ge said maybe i can finally lose weight with all this stress. ive never been able to lose the weight i gained last christmas (about 10 pounds)...
i wish.
or maybe id get even fatter. wahhhh...

not even a wink

yep. as of last count, i have been awake for...

22 hours.

and still counting because im headed to the office in a while... i drank about 3 cups of coffee this---oooppss, yesterday morning. i did get a lot accomplished, but still... i havent slept?! grabe havent done this for a really looong time.

had to finish a paper pa kasi. sigh. and later i wont get my much needed sleep pa cause Lola Lilia will be arriving from the States at susunduin pa namin sha. plus i have a lot of UK work pa, and there's my freaking ApMath 40 pt take home quiz. really, we havent even had a lesson yet tapos quiz agad?! sheeeshhh...

teachers really are slave drivers.

looking at the bright side, i'm at my "blooming" best when im puyat! and my lips turn really red... ;)

why do i sometimes feel like i don't exist for you?

it seems the best times are the ones when we live in our own little world, just the two of us...

but when the whole world wants to witness what we have, it is reduced to not even a quarter of how it is when it's just us.

why does it have to be like that?

why do i not recognize you sometimes? like there's this part of you that i just don't get?

and at this moment, everything comes crashing down on me.

just how real is this?

for 3 years... maybe it just isn't.