The finest form of betrayal is when someone you love betrays you

yesterday was no doubt the absolute worst day of my life. I got more than what i bargained for, got so much more than what i deserved. actually, i know i didn't deserve it. But who ever knew how life worked?
I've actually learned something, though it's against what i've always stood up for.
Expect the worst.
And the pain wont be so unbearable i think.
Kasi when you keep being an optimist, the bad things will keep haunting you... If only I hadn't kept on hoping for the best, hoping that every bit of yourself that you've given would be worth it somehow, hoping that you would be happy, hoping that it will be forever, hoping... wishing... praying so hard. Maybe it wouldn't be this way. Maybe it wouldn't hurt as much. Maybe the pain would go away easier.
But then maybe, it has been written that I would feel this way. That i would go through this pain. Not only once.
Pero baka it's all for the better.
What matters is that... today im pretty!!!! hahahaha
no matter how crappy i feel inside, feeling ko ang ganda ganda ko! hahaha.
basta atleast right now, im okay. and we're okay. and no matter how bad it's gotten, i still have my best friend.
maybe it's stupid. but what matters right now is the present...
and at present, i am pretty!!! hahahahaha.
parang nase-semi loka loka na ko ah... oh well...
what's life without being insane...