no longer child's play

again, i find myself at a loss...

what to feel.
what to do.
what to think.

the pressure of so much love for such a long time is weighing me down...

but the thought of that same love is lifting me up...

an emotional tug-of-war.

i don't know how much longer this will go on, but i want it to be over soon...

please let it be over soon.