hesitant kasi takot masaktan...

it is true that the only people who can really hurt you are the ones that you love... so should you love less in order to be hurt less? loving someone is like giving that person the ability to hurt you. and maybe against their better judgment, they do hurt you... being hurt is something no one can take back. what's done is done and it leaves a deep mark. you may both choose to forgive and 'forget', but it's still there. and sometimes it haunts you...
it is haunting me.
we are all haunted by the past one way or another. the question is whether you let it affect the present and your future. i havent quite decided what to do with these ghosts... to ignore them or to try and figure out what message they are trying to tell me?
i cant make them go away. not yet. not until i can learn to trust. to trust that fate won't make history repeat itself. to trust that i am strong enough to endure being hurt by the one i love. to trust that the world won't conspire to destroy my own fragile moment of magic.