random thoughts of a semi-insane albeit charming little girl...

Monday, December 27

belated happy bday, Jesus!

i miss being a kid during the holidays...
ung you make kulit to everyone else in the kitchen preparing the meals...
ung you give gifts to your classmates and friends out of your hard-earned savings (well, for me, it's a week's worth of stepping on my daddy's back and for running to the bakery to buy stuff and keeping the change)...
ung di ka makatulog the night before kasi you keep thinking about Santa and his gifts for you...
ung you prepare to act shy but astound everyone else with your talent when you sing for your relatives before Noche Buena...
ung you eat eat eat and think, wow, this is the best Christmas ever...
ung you open your gifts and shout kasi tuwang tuwa ka sa gifts mo kahit mababaw lang ung gamit nya...
ung you go caroling at other people's houses, sing thank you thank you so loudly when they give you something, and wish them ill when they dont (and sing 'ambabarat ninyo' even louder)...
ung you share your candies with the sampaguita girl on the street...
ung you look up at the sky and see the stars plus the fireworks pa... tapos you shout pa...
ung you pray hard to God...
ung you make a list of new year's resolutions way ahead of everyone else... tapos when you hear theirs, you edit yours pa...
ung feeling lang... ung feeling na kid ka and it's the holidays and its so fun fun fun...

pero ok lang... i had a great time this year...
ngayon kasi, i can say na, kahit na namulubi ako, i was able to treat everyone else to a Christmas they wont forget... i know that money cant buy real happiness... but giving it away sure made me happy... :D
not literally giving it away noh! i just treated everyone else to good food, some shopping for their wish lists, watch movies so they can forget their not-so-happy lives even for just 2 hours... i bought stuff for myself also... hehe. a book, 2 bags, a magazine, a pair of earrings and sunglasses.
over all. i am happy :D because after the weekend, when i lay in my bed last night before i slept, all i could see were the smiling faces of my relatives and inaanaks, and their noisy laughter.
in the end. this is what matters:

we long for someone (or for others)
NOT BECAUSE WE WANT TO BE HAPPY
but we long for someone (or for them)
because we want to share our happiness
with that special person (or those special people)
for the rest of our lives...

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