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i think today would be another so-so day... u know how you've always wanted to be or do something extraordinary with your life, but you cant cos there are things that dont allow you to? or maybe that's just me? or maybe there are just too many superficial things that you care about that's why you cant do the extraordinary things? sometimes i feel so trapped by what i am... and you cant really change all of a sudden bcos ud be the one who'd have a hard time adjusting to the changes that you so want to make... wala lang. i just realized that its been almost a year since ive graduated an have i really achieved something? are the things i aspired to be or have or do, have i reached them? did i even take steps to reach them? haha, but then, what do i really want in life?
am i so over analyzing my situation? is there such a thing as thinking too much about your life? maybe while im thinking im missing out on the opportunities that i should have taken? did i make the right decisions? am i a better person now?
ok, im not making any sense again. change topic.
i want to do something worthwhile with my time. kaya i try to learn stuff in the net (habang walang work), but wud u believe i want to study again? yep. i planned to take an MBA sana next semester kaso naman kainis! at least 2 years work experience for Ateneo MBA and 3 years naman for La Salle MBA (ok sana la salle convenient kasi jan lang sa RCBC tower...) so bale i have to wait another year pa?! kainis talaga!!! grrrr!!!
so pano na yan? what am i to do?
iniisip ko nga kahit seminars on financial planning sana i can enroll... kaso i thought that would cost me, compared sa MBA that can be financed by the company...
hay ewan ko...ano nga bang gagawin ko sa buhay ko?
di pa ko nakakapag-pray ng matino... gusto ko ren sana makapag-confess na ko...kasi naman pag communion my sister always asks:
"pipila ka ba?"
"hindi."
"bakit?"
"kasi di pa ko nakapag-confess"
"so?"
"makasalanan pa ako..."
tapos she goes ahead para magcommunion... eh minsan mas-bad pa sha sa ken eh! (haha, compare myself to a 9 year old girl, u can laugh...)
that's it. i suck.
huhuhu...
hope i get my spirits up later... m gonna watch cruel intentions na nga muna...
learned something new today: i suck?!
made me smile today: im thinking really hard... er. nothing yet. :(
current mood: down
listening to: ring ring... but it aint my phone. boohooooooo.... :(